Innocence

So I was watching shows after shows and I realize I am such a softie. I losing my mojo here. I feel sorry for the villain that get their deserts. And we aren't talking about the mojojojo or gargamel badasses. But it's those torture, heartless, sadistic, psychopathic people that don't think twice about killing people. Or the other kind of "villain" would be those whores and sluts that bitch about people and sleep around with their best friend's boyfriends. When the tables are turned on them, I only get the shortest moment of gloating, before I feel sorry for their pitied state.

I guess I could say the same for my life. I always tell myself that it's too tiring bearing grudges and having cold wars and cold shoulders. I'm always so quick to forgive and forget, it's kind of alarming sometimes. But in the end, I found out, I'm always the receiving end of the blade. So, I'm still that person, except that I've harden myself to the world. The urge to forgive and forget is there, the sad feeling is still there. But you know, people only see what I want them to see. It's a quote from somewhere I can't remember. We only show what we want people to see.

Is it possible? To have a change of heart so quickly? To love someone with all your heart and then hate the person the next day. It's too hard, too confusing to think about it, to configure out whether it's a love-hate relationship. I just don't see how is that possible. To have a change of heart that quickly. It seems almost cruel.

Almost.