I never saw this day coming.
Looked back on my posts, most of which were rather emotionally fuelled. I admit, my words were sharp, emotional and so god damn beautifully woven together. It seemed as though my life is surging of darkness, incapacitated of love and compassion, full of emotional distress and tumultuous feelings.
Let me clear this up for you, it is not. Okay maybe void of love and compassion, that needs more clarification.
Yes there were some days I feel like strangling people. Some days I wanted to strangle myself. I would never do that, I think really highly of myself. There were days I think I am God's gift to anyone who lay their eyes on me, some other days I think I'm a piece of black thrash swirling in the hurricane. This posts created were on days I felt like a piece of black thrash.
You must understand I wrote the various pieces with Kelly Clarkson screaming "BECAUSE OF YOU ARE THE SHAME OF MY LIFE BECAUSE IS EMPTY AND NOW I CRY IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT FOR THE SAME DAMN THING" But jokes aside, I don't make up facts just to write bawl about it every night articles. There are fractures in my life that has impacted me more negatively than positively.
Looking back, I still won't see this day coming. I was made weak by time and fate, but strong in will. I fought, I strived, I seek, but I never yielded.
I like to look at the lemon tree. Many people don't get me. They don't get why I am such a stubborn pain in the ass. And I wonder. I know what I want. I get what I want. I am selfish. And it's just another lemon tree.
